Thursday, April 16, 2015

Well, That Wasn't the News I was Hoping For!

Though, to be honest, I don't think there was any news that I was actually hoping for.  No news is good news, right??  When I emailed my doctor the other day about not feeling 100%, she suggested that I do some more blood work to get a big picture view of what's going on.  In my mind, I was thinking that would be a great way to eliminate worrying about anemia.  Rule shit out.  Sounds good!

Until I got my numbers back today.

This sucks.
As it happens, I am even more anemic than I was last year.  What the ever-lovin' and actual fuck is that all about?!?

My first reaction was just pure rage.  I'm still sort of there, honestly, except that now I'm also just really, really sad.  I feel like my body is betraying me.  And I wonder what it is exactly that I'm doing wrong.  Besides that whole "not having enough iron" thing.  I eat right.  I don't feel like I train excessively.  I sleep enough.  I'm a good person.  Why me?

Okay, that was melodramatic.  But, as you may have noticed, I'm throwing myself a little pity party today.  Yay.  Everybody loves those.

So, the first thing on the To Do List is to get over myself and make a plan, because whining about things doesn't fix them!  I know full well that this is going to take some time to get over, so I might as well get my head straight and figure out something productive to do with all that time that I won't be running.

Wasn't I also just saying that I wanted to spend more time working on the blog??  Silver lining, baby!

Tell me some good news!  And since I have the time on my hands... what's the best book you've read lately??


dion.middelkoop said...

So sorry to hear that... Now I can't help you with a book, but I have been reading:
as I'm trying to get back into track running, and some of the articals are great...

Laura said...

Oh Pahla, I'm so sorry to heat that. I wouldn't call this a pity party. I would call it a normal human reaction to a situation that totally sucks! I wish I could fix it for you. I haven't been reading much lately, but the first book that comes to mind is The Rosie Project (if you haven't already read it).

Kate said...

So bummed for you! Pity party away, girl.

I've read a crap-ton of books since Christmas (which probably directly relates to my weight gain). Ummm...The Husband's Secret, the Game of Thrones series, Outlander, Divergent (ok), Insurgent (ok), The Storied Life of AJ Fikry (loved it), Orange is the New Black (ok, expected to like it more), Dream When You're Feeling Blue (ok), Whistling Past the Graveyard, Necessary Lies, The Girl on the Train (pretty good suspense-ish), This is the Story of a Happy Marriage (essays, I liked it), 8000 Miles Across Alaska.